This month I would like to talk about what happened to me both physically and mentally after arriving here at the Westchester County Jail. I will also talk about my feelings and views towards steroids.
Up to the time of my arrest I was on a heavy cycle. This consisted of 1800 mg of test and 400 mg of tren a week. In addition I was taking 50 mg of D-Bal and 10 IU's of GH a day. I weighed 298 lbs. at the time and at 6'3" I guess you can say I was a big fucker. Well I'm sure all of you know when you're on a cycle you should taper off. I was forced to stop taking all my shit the day I was arrested. After about a week of eating Ramen Soup (which by the way cost 5 cents in the real world but in here it's 50 cents - rip-off), I got a nosebleed. I'm used to eating "clean". All the sodium in the soup shot my blood pressure up through the roof.
Now this nosebleed was no normal nosebleed. It was more like the fucking oil leak in the Gulf of Mexico. I just couldn't get the blood to stop coming out. The C.O.'s (correction officers) took me to the nurse's station. She packed my nose up with some rubber shit and a gauze pad. This, as you can imagine, was not too comfortable. Later, when the nurse took everything out of my nose, the shit that came out looked like a week-old used tampon, but thankfully it did stop the bleeding. Immediately, I stopped eating that shitty soup. This's when I realized that I had to be very careful how I ate in here because my body was about to go through some major changes.
There are no weights in the Westchester County Jail. All we have to work out with is what you see in the drawing I sketched. When I came in I would fuck around and have some fat guy hang onto my back while I did pull-ups. But that didn't last long. Being in jail got me down and I stopped working out and had no energy to do anything. I did nothing but sleep all day. I didn't eat much at all - once, sometimes twice, a day. I was depressed and had no motivation to work out and no appetite to eat. I guess this had a lot to do with my surroundings and my testosterone levels dropping to 59 (normal range for a male my age is 250-1100). My weight dropped down to 255 lbs. I looked and felt like shit. Talk about a mind fuck! 
Now depression and low testosterone are some of the negative effects of taking juice, but I'm sure if I came off them the right way which I've done a number of times during my cycling years, I would not have gone through all of that. I started working out when I was 14. I started taking gear when I was 15. I never stopped until I was arrested. I never missed a day at the gym because if I did I would feel like shit. Now, no gym, no juice; just me losing my mind and body in jail. It took about a year before I started to feel better. I have my good and bad days - my depression comes and goes but that's part of being here.
My energy level is really not there but I found a way to help with that. We can buy coffee in the commissary. So I take a tablespoon of coffee and put it under my tongue. It tastes like shit but winds me up to work out. My testosterone level came up to 129 which is still low but I'll just have to deal with it for now. I started eating every 2 and a half hours. All I eat is white rice and tuna. We get to order commissary twice a week. We get to spend $75 each time. It's all a big rip-off. The tuna I buy here costs $2.50 (at home it's 99 cents). Do the math - 20 tuna's cost $50. I only can spend $75 each time so that only leaves me with $50 for the week to buy whatever else I need. I'm eating 6 cans of tuna a day, that's 42 cans a week. So as you can see it's hard to get the right amount of protein I need; and to make matters worse, I'm also getting ripped off in the process.
They also sell chicken in the can for $4.50 (at home it's .99 cents.... crazy right?). In some jails you can have 15 lbs. of food packages sent in. Not here. You can't have anything from the outside sent in. There are no protein drinks or bars - just tuna and rice. I weigh 280 lbs. now. I'm not hard and vascular like I'm used to being. But at least I have my size. What really sucks is I'm ghost white. I love to tan. I even own a tanning salon. In here I only get to go outside in a small cage. This cage has a solid roof over it so I get the outside air but no sunlight. It gives a whole new meaning to the words "white boy". They say it's the little things you take for granted in life. I went from working out in a state of the art gym to this shit "Con-Fitness". I went from eating steaks and protein shakes to tuna and rice. I went from having a deep dark tan to being pastier than Casper The Friendly Ghost. Fuck it; that's life. I'm just stating the facts; I'm not crying about them. One of the things I miss most from the bodybuilding lifestyle is the juice! Let's keep it real. . . not like some of the other websites and magazines out there who I won't mention by name. As a bodybuilder I love being on the gear. I'm so sick of the juiceheads out there who are on the shit but are afraid to talk about it. Look there is nothing wrong with doing it naturally but even the natural bodybuilders have to deal with the government coming in every other month and shutting down one their favorite supplement companies. Where the fuck does this end? Maybe if more people that are on the shit would stand up and talk about the positive effects they get from taking gear then maybe, just fucking maybe, the public and the government would have a different outlook on it all.
This is why I'm so happy that RxMuscle.com exists and doesn't bullshit or dance around issues. I don't believe children should take any type of drugs. But as you get older there may be things you'd like to fix about yourself. That's why there's botox, nose jobs, breast implants and even ass jobs. These surgical procedures make a person look and feel better about themselves. To me that's what the juice does. I have no problem saying I take juice and love how I look and feel on it. Marijuana's been illegal for years. Now a few states legalized it for medical use. There needs to be more research done on steroids and GH to show how these drugs can help you feel better both physically and emotionally. I've been taking juice for 20 years & right now the only thing wrong with me as far as I know is my low testosterone which if I came off my cycle the right way, I would be fine. My liver and kidney check out perfect. I'm not telling people to use juice or not use it. I'm speaking from my own experience. I'm tired of seeing these drugs get a bad rap in the media. The media puts out a lot of bullshit without any facts to back up their claims. This needs to stop and all the facts need to be laid out on the table - the good and the bad. Let people come to their own conclusion. I think they will see tht the positives outweigh the negatives, and that steroids and GH do have a place in our society.
Next month I'm going to tell you about some of our crazy prison workout routines. I think you will all be amazed about how inventive an inmate can be when they want to get their pump on. I do not have internet here so if you would like to reach me you have to do it the old fashioned way - through the mail.
Scott Siegel # 47031
PO Box 10
Valhalla, NY 10595
I will write back and answer any letter I receive. Until next month keep it real and stand up for what you believe in.
